FABULOUS FLOWERS FROM KYELS

A friend blogger has just sent me photos of beautiful flowers. 

She knows that my biggest waterloo are flowers and I would definitely drop everything when I see them.   Kyels like me is obssessed with a hobby.  Mine as of the moment is improving my skills and craft to become a DRAG QUEEN.  Kyels is in photography.  I think she is really getting good with this!  You can see some of her beautiful works in her website www.Kyels.com.

I posted one of them to share with you all!!!  This truly brightens my winter days!

Thanks Kyels !!!

CLOSER TO HOME !!!

 

LAS TRES ESTRELLAS : 2007 SPRING FASHION PARADE

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Though I am not clinically depressed, I know that the times when I become a little bit more ”feeling alone”, “being inside myself”, “homesicky”, and “gaga-irritable” could be so annoyingly painful, you could easily drop me to the nearest psychiatric ward. 

I guess it is because of the fact that though I was a certified loner during my earlier life (early teens and college), when I started working overseas, (as if by the power of grand designs), I met these beautiful individuals with whom I developed some closer family type of friendship.  As if we were drawn to each other, we started building a new family away from home.  Block by block.  And I turned from a loner to a social butterfly.

I mean, I am talking about around 4 people and extended to around 20.  We lived together.  Worked close to each other. Cooked and ate together. Slapped each other to death.  Had plenty of fun, fun, plenty of fun.  Explored our potentials.  And laughed at ourselves building dreams and watching them disappear.  

We were like a school of FISH, or a pack of DOGS or HYENAS. 

Unafraid, untouchable and irridiscent. 

And though we were all gays to varying degrees of freaknesses and weaknesses, we were when together - solid as a rock, if you may.  We were all brothers turned sisters in crime.  

And I got well  ”scarred” for life. 

GAYS - with varying degrees of gayness and uniqueness bonded together for eternity!  Like vampires.  Just so chaotic and yet so perfect.  We had all something in common and differences which we all shared, valued and grew upon. And to each one, we were bonded through solid six years and thereafter.  

This is the kind of relationship that I dearly missed.  That I had been longing. And sadly, I think could not be replaced or recoup - at this time or place, ever.  So those of you who are in this type of set up, cherish the moments and feel lucky for this will never come again in your life. 

In our original group, two of us had been apart physically.  The other three were still in the same place overseas but we keep on communicating - touching grounds, through letters,and then emails, chatrooms, text, phone.  But we had not been together again (reunited) for such a long time now.

I am now in a different type of relationship to one person. In seven years, I would say it could not fill the gaps, the insanity, and the big hole (no pun intended) drilled and created by that circle of friends. 

I still miss the times when I am together with my ”family buddies”.  Where laughter, fun, and kinship is a common ground. Plus adventure and tinges of danger.  (I just remember the book and movie - Revelation)  

The video above from Tita Lyka of the Las Tres Estrellas is a reminder of my past. It is as if I am recoiled back to the olden times.  Big blast from the past.  We were doing exactly the same as this dress up, modelling, make believe, beauty contests, girly type of gatherings using bedsheets and whatever we thought we could use.  And for a blog friend that I have only known for six month, she has given me the answer to all my longings.  Thanks my Tita, I love your creations !  

It was pure magic - pure fun. Liberating. Being yourself.  And it was the best of times. 

I feel like I AM ”CLOSER TO HOME”.